I’m in a bit of a limbo at the moment. Well, I’ve been in a life-limbo in many ways since the f*cking Brexit vote but now I’m not only in a job limbo but exercise limbo as well.
Firstly I’m not doing the CrossFit Open this year. I don’t regret my decision to take a year off from it but I’m still feeling a bit on the outside right now. The Open IS super fun and last Friday I had some serious case of the Sads. Everyone else was doing and/or talking about 18.1 and I was sitting at home eating pizza…
There’s nothing wrong with pizza of course, but I normally go to CrossFit on Friday nights and I just felt a bit out of place and alone… Last year’s Open really messed with my head and my confidence for some reason though and I wanted to take a year off. Especially since I did not work on any of my weaknesses last year because it was a marathon running year.
Also, I can’t freaking run right now because my left arch is still sore! I have no idea what I’ve done to it and the whole “I don’t get injured” thing is such a strong identity of mine that I’m really annoyed right now. If I don’t run for a few days my foot is not so sore anymore but as soon as I run, I hobble the next day.
Thankfully I’m not training for a marathon so I just have to wait it out and do other things. In CrossFit I can always modify what I do so that’s not a problem. I’ve also been swimming and rock climbing again. I’ve remembered that even though logging miles alone is enjoyable for me, I also love swimming and climbing with my boys.
My initial plan for 2018 was to keep up my higher than before weekly mileage and run over 2000km again but now my foot is stuffed and maybe it’s a lesson for me that it’s just as much fun to do a bit of a lot of things and not just pound the pavements by myself all the time.
The first time back at climbing was hard and I felt I had lost a lot of my grip strength, but now I feel like I’m pretty much back where I left off when I stopped climbing due to marathon training last spring. And my boys love having me climb with them again.
So I’m trying to see the positive in every day and every situation. It doesn’t come easily if you’re limping and in limbo about some Big Life Decisions, but I’m just gonna fake it til I make it, keep plodding along doing whatever I can every day to make my body and mind relax and happy.
I’ll never again be as young as I am today. I might as well take full advantage of it each day.