There’s no other way to put it – 2017 was a f*cking rollercoaster. There were loads of great moments and great achievements, but my personal and professional life was most defined by the wonderful thing called Brexit.
I haven’t written much about how Brexit affected / is affecting my job and my life and my mental health, mostly because I haven’t really been allowed to do so, but to briefly summarise, it’s affected my husband’s job and therefore his stress levels and for me it’s even more severe and means that I will have to start looking for a new job in 2018.
Now lots of people lose jobs and find new ones so it’s not like this has never happened to anyone else before but I am pissed off. I’m mad at this totally stupid Brexit situation, I’m mad that over 10 years with some great people is coming to an end just because of a stupid political decision.
I have been throwing a tantrum over this for a long time now though so I’m thinking that maybe in 2018 it’s time to move on and start looking forward. Brexit is not going to go anywhere. I finally applied for permanent residency here in the UK and the papers have arrived in the post. I can stay. I can look for another job. (or I can move to a totally different country, I’m open to all options ;)
I can choose to take this all as not an end but a beginning of something else.
2018 will probably still be a rollercoaster but I’m hoping it’ll be a more fun one. My mother who has lived with us for 12 years is moving back home, I’m changing my work pattern (while I still have a job) so that I can take the kids to school and pick them up. I’m changing Crossfit boxes. I’m changing the time of day I exercise.
I’m basically changing my whole life pattern, but at the moment I can truly say I’m not scared. I feel like I need this change. It’s become a bit too tricky having two mothers in the house. I feel like the universe is a little bit on my side as a new Crossfit box opened up near my house just a few months ago so as hard as it is to leave my current box, I have another option, which makes the change a little bit easier.
So 2017 was “Brexit and Tantrums” and 2018 will be “Change”.
Change can be painful and uncomfortable at times too, but it can also be great so I’m going to keep telling myself every single day that I’m ready.