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What am I training for? Mostly just life.

Monday, 27 March 2017

I think I have decided not to redo the last CrossFit Open 2017 workout, move on and take the lessons learned and build on that.

I did not enjoy that last workout, it was definitely the worst for me from all of them – 10 rounds of 9 thrusters at 30kg and 35 double-unders. I made the mistake of going into it thinking that I’ll enjoy it, thinking that it wouldn’t be a big deal. There are, after all, ONLY 9 thrusters every round and since I’m pretty good with double unders, I thought I would be able to do all sets of 35 unbroken and just breathe and recover for the thrusters.

Ha.

3 rounds in and I had run out of energy. I literally felt empty and tired, and had to stop a lot and break up the double-unders a lot. I don’t mind being in pain or having a sky-high heart rate but I HATE feeling fatigued like I just need to lie on the floor for a bit.

I have no idea what hit me. I KNOW I can do better, especially earlier in the day but I’m not going to put myself through it again – my triceps and my quads are still sore and it really doesn’t matter if I’m 2500th in the leader board or 3500th.

It’s not about the leader board. I have to remind myself that over and over again. It’s not about how I compare to anyone else.

The only reason I would do it again is to prove to myself that I can do better but I’m choosing to let it go this time because I’m tired and sore.

My fitness habit does have some competitive element to it, but mostly it’s just about being fit as I get older, and feeling alive and well. I may be getting up there when it comes to age but age in numbers does not matter as much as how you FEEL living in your body.

I realise that at some point I will slow down but I truly believe that that time does not have to come for another few decades. I will fight and sweat and rep out pull ups and burpees until I can’t anymore. And then I will sneak back in and do them a little bit slower ;)

To go off on a little bit of a tangent, but still related to the reasons why people exercise – I had a peek today at all the ‘fitness’ posts Bloglovin suggests for me to read. It was a sad state of affairs – young women are still in 2017 SO hung up on being skinny and toned (whatever that means)… but mostly still skinny… but having big butts and big boobs.

Sooner or later your butt and your boobs will drop an inch (and way more if you don’t lift! ;) and there’s nothing you can do about it. But – you can STILL be strong and have muscles that support your bones, have a heart that pumps well, and have lungs that let you run, and have a body that doesn’t ache and is a joy to live in.

That feeling of having a well-functioning body is what will carry you and give you a life you love to live when you’re not a spring chicken anymore.

But that has to be understood beforehand, I think. If all you want from your fitness regime is a certain look, then when that is not happening anymore, will you give up or will you keep going?

You will keep going only if you have figured out within yourself that fitness is about so much more than looking like a bikini competitor.

Over and out. Before I go off on another tangent. ;P

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  • Reply Anna @AnnaTheApple Tuesday, 28 March 2017 at 12:20

    I so agree with this. I don’t want to be a carbon copy of someone else. I used to look at Victoria’s Secret models and wish I looked like them. But now I look at myself and know I can run marathons and lift weights and be a total bad ass in my own body. And feeling strong and healthy is so powerful :)

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